i'm slowly learning how to unlearning

hey guys do u find my title sad??????? because i do :( in fact it's really sad. i used to get gr8 results (((you could say so))) but now i'm just an average girl with an average result i'm really sad. i dont think there's anything left for me. family is just so demanding and i guess they put their hopes too high and when i fall they seem to be stressing me out. it's frustrating as hell. i just wanna be smart again. i'm pretty sure people are gonna laugh at me when i get back to school this january. remember when my pointer dropped to 3.64 during standardized test 2?????? remember what 2 of my so-called-friends said to me?????? it was really pathetic idk man. they insulted me. just bc i used to be on the top dont freaking insult me cos my pointer dropped. i have feelings too. you just dont know how hard it is to maintain. noone sees my vision when i play it for em they just say it's whack.